fighting the urge to run!

Do you ever have those days where you just feel like doing nothing? Where laziness has crepted in and you just want to lay in bed or maybe just barely move. Where that was yesterday(friday) but it is rather hard when you have two little children, hanging on your every move!! Hee hee..yet, i love those kids like they were my own.

The highlight, was when Tim, called me. I miss him so much!! It was so cool to just laugh and talk about life. It was really good.

I had my girls group last night. It was really strange. We had our first short little bible study thing. Course only 2 girls were there. But i love them both very much. I think they thought that we were just going to goof around the whole time. I don't know. It was one of the first discouragements of the evening. The cool part was that we played hide and go seek in the basement of the church. I almost peed my pants so many times. but it was so much fun. oh yea, it was in the dark on top of it!! Which i sort of was scared at first, cuz i had been in here before and there were sounds coming from the other room, like someone was in here. It scared me. then we went to walmart, looked around for a bit, it was here that i learned that words have a major effect on you. Even though sometimes you can put a smile on your face and pretend that it didn't bother you. Than other times, it is exactly what you don't need to hear. I have been having issues with my weight. Something that i always struggle with, but it still bothers me, and for the last week or so, it has been a big problem. Last night, one of the girls kept saying these comments. It was like she was telling me that i was fat and if i kept going like i was, that i wouldn't be able to even walk around walmart. With out trouble. It wasn't just one time, it was many times. I know what you are thinking, I went to the school of ministry, i shouldn't have this problem!! hee hee...

Then today, we went with a group of us, to Terre Haute (the nearest big city in Indiana) to watch a movie. Raise your Voice (Hilary Duff) not really one i would really have liked to seen, i don't really like hilary duff..but i thought maybe...it did surprise me and i rather enjoyed it. We then went to the christian bookstore and mall. At the book store, we were looking at some t-shirts, and i found one that i liked, then another comment was made. It hasn't been the greatest couple of days...but there has been some good things.

God is faithful and I just need to remember who I am in Him, and that He loves me, even if i have a pudge!! or am not supermodel skinny!! Thank you Jesus

oh and i ran a red light and almost killed everyone in my car... so that was interesting..