It's amazing what happens when you let go and Let the big man take over..

Okay, so God like totally rocks my shoes off!!
He is just so cool! I love him so much!
About a month ago, i went to an amusement park with one of my friends. Sure you say what is the big deal. but Ever since returning home from Canada, things have been awkward, and well, just not real good. Which has been frustrating, and disappointing. But i felt like I was suppose to ask her to come, cuz i got 2 free tickets through work. but everyone i asked couldn't come. yea God sets things up even when you don't think so.. so we went. we are both dreading the outcome, cuz ya know these things are suppose to be fun. but we hadn't really talked for like ever. but God was there the whole time..we laughed, we cried, we hugged. It was really good. God is so cool. I ended up going to her wedding at the beginning of July. Which was something that i had said that i wouldn't attend..but God changed my heart for the situation.

So not only did he restore that relationship, he helped restore some more with some of my other friends. Just by us getting together and being honest with each other. Now we are taking each day as it comes..and God totally blesses that..

My room finally is done enough for me to move in..there are still some minor things that need to to accomplished, but it totally rocks..and i can't make up my mind on what i want to do. but it's just cool to have a bed to sleep on, instead of the couch. Praise Jesus!

My sister's baby is growing, so fast. It's insane.

I have had to kill my pride alot. I have just started taking time out to hear His voice. though I am still distracted with things. I am doing okay. and i am learning about being humble. which is harder than i thought it would be. but ya know.

And I have fallen in love. His name is David, he is 11 years older than I, and has 2 children, Rachl and Korbin, from previous marriage. He plays the bass, and guitar, is in the worship band with me. I like him a lot. It's funny, cuz i look at him and we are exact opposites. And not at all the man i would have pictured myself with. It's not perfect. There is still some growing up we both have to do. Sometimes i fight that with all of me. We have a lot of talks. Sometimes it's just me talking. But i don't know. every day i wake up and pray, for him and me. we are just taking it one day at a time. It all just kind of took us both by surprise. but so far it's okay.

I think that is all i needto put for now. It's pretty long.
Have a great day!

ohmygosh!! this last week has been crazy!!
My sister had her baby at 1:51 pm on Monday afternoon!! He was 5 lbs 15 oz..19 and half inches long!!
they came home on wednesday! it's been interesting..but oh so cool..it just cool to see this life that has been growing in my sister's belly for almost 9 months and now he is here..he is so cute..i love him so much!! it really makes me want to have kids even more..however i am waiting..

I signed up for Classes out at our local college..i'm kind of excited!!
God has really been doing some cool stuff..
for example..i have not had a heart to stay here.. in fact i have been looking for an escape route since i came home from Toronto! but the other day i was talking to my friend nathan..telling him about the college and stuff..as i am talking to him, God is like totally talking to me..I was talking about how i have such hopes and dreams for my future that i want to get it started now and my heart has been in Toronto..cuz it's where want to be! but God is like but if you keep looking at all that stuff you will miss out on what i have for you here right now..and i never thought about that before..than a few days later i was talking to one of my friends..who in high school we were pretty close, but over the years not so close..i would easily become frustrated with you and just usually walk around from her..i know i was a great friend..
but a while back, we were talking and all hanging out in the coffee shop at church..she was talking..i was getting frustrated and turned to leave..then it was like i couldn't..like i had to stay..then i said something and she started to cry..and i just went and hugged her..and she cried and i hugged..it was totally god..cuz before i wouldn't have been that way..but i dont' know...it was cool!!

what else..I think i sort of started dating someone..it was weird..and it continues to be a wierd situation..as i am not quite sure what God wants..however i think my heart has fallen for him..which makes it really wierd and probably not what is suppose to happen..but my heart is having conflicts..or my mind is not agreeing..or i am just looking at what i want rather than what the big man wants..

Last night, saturday...we had our big youth thing..we recently bought the church behind us..and we had been fixing up the chapel for our youth room..it like rocks..so last night we had a band from close by and just rocked out mostly..and there were like 60 kids there..and it was so cool!!

Now today, we are having out annual fish fry..where we eat lots, play softball, and then take naps..only to get up and some of us are watching napolean dynamite..(okay i know it's spelled wrong)but that should be fun..

anyway, i think i am done..
oh yea..i am coming to canada this weekend..but it's going to be a heck of a trip..but it will be worth it..maybe heading to Toronto sunday..if possible to say a quick hello to sarah and lee..so yea..that should be fun!!

anyway, i'm getting off of here..once i figure out how to put pictures on here..i will have one of Brynnen!! yahoo!!

Brynnen Ray Nethery Is on His Way!!!

So this morning about 3:30 am, my mom rushes home from work..to find my sister in labor pains..she has been since about 9:30 last night..but they just got close..so he is not here yet..but he is coming..it is now about 9:30 am..12 hours..i am so excited..i can't wait to see what he looks like..

I am also nervous..this morning she was crying..i think the pain was more than she expected..but i guess it would be..now she is haveing contractions and i wish that i could just take the pain from her..I prayed to God not to let it hurt so much....

anyway, i should probably go..i need to get some stuff and then head back in..but i just took a quick break to write this..

The most perfect Date!!

Okay, so really it wasn't a date, but if it was, It would have been awesome!!

So Tuesday, I awoke just in time to leave for work..A few hours later, I arrive home, and begin to get ready for my night out!!

It's like God pushed the pause button on my normal life, and said, hey lets put some spice in it..okay for some of you..this may not seem exciting..but I am like a little kid, when it comes to new things..and bands that i love..so just picture a little kid getting the present that she had been wishing for all year!! You'll understand it more!!

So i did my hair..it came out perfect..I recently got it layered, and i was afraid i would have to spend more time on it than i had time for..but God rocks..cuz it was great..I put on my Ghostbuster shirt, and walked out the door!! of course i had on pants too...

Sparing you most of the details..We drove to evanville, In, about 2 hours away...where we went to the mall..Entering the Build-A-Bear store(for those of you who don't know..you start with the skin of a stuffed animal, you fluff it..put a heart in it, brush it, pick out an outfit for it!!) it was so cool!! I loved it..when i recieve pictures..i'll show them to you all!! HIs name is Zeke, the Pickle man, he's a monkey, cuz i love monkeys!!

After this, we went to a japanese restaurant..where, they cook in front of you!! It was so amazing..i got an onion thrown on me!! I laughed so hard, and the fire part was really cool!!

Leaving the restaurant, we head for this church, where my utmost favorite band is playing!! SUPERCHIC[K]!!

They totally rocked the night..and Josh Mcdowell did as well!! hee hee!! But man..then i got to talk to them afterward..and i get so nervous..but it was totally cool!! we then preceded to head home..

That is my evening in a nutshell...leaving out most of the details..for fear of boredom!! but i loved it!!

my grandma is snoring in the background..

My mind just went blank..how can you write a blog on a blank mind? it's rather impossible..so i am going to ramble until something enters my head!!

Recent events..my life as taken a sudden boring turn..I have working about 8 to 9 hours a day, than either coming home and being lazy or going to the church where it seems like I am involved in everything, yet nothing at all....
Oh dude, we recently added ducks to our family..It' so cool..they don't like being held, but i love to try and get them..i like to pester than more than anything!! hee hee.but my dad is like you need to try and feed them!! so i did..and i was like scared at first..I don't know why..I guess i am always scared of new things..or things I don't really know a lot about..It rocked!! they like tickled my hand..it was so amazing..the experiance can not be told..it must be experianced..hee hee!!

At work the other day, I downed a whole thing of spicey buffalo sauce!! it all started when I ate a ketchup packet..thank you sarah!! it was the most disgusting thing i have had..i came so close to puking..yet it was rather fun!! hee hee....anyway..

Oh yea!! I have recently read sarah's blog!! I am rather jeolous, cuz i am not even sure that anyone reads my blog!! but in a way i don't really take the time like she does to make things interesting..so really i don't blame anyone!!

my little sister is about 8 and a half months pregnant..and she is so cute!! her belly is so big and her belly button is close to being an outtie!! it is so great!! I can't wait for my little nephew, Brynnon Ray, to arrive..of course..I would like him to make the full term...so i guess i can wait!!

one final note!! I recently bought a few outfits..skirts, skorts, and girly clothes..I don't do that sort of thing..but something hit me whenever I went into this store..and i was suckered in..but they are cute..i just decided that I wanted to look like a girl..instead of my normal jeans and shirts..

Sometimes life isn't so easy..Than there are moments..that make it worth it!

There once was a girl, who worked all day long. She liked her job, as much as she could. For it twas not her dream, however good enough for now! One day while at work, she was asking some questions to the person she was talking too. Beside him was an old lady. Who decided that the girl was not doing a good job. So she not so sweetly states her opinion. Than begins to give the girl some lovely looks, as well as complain to fellow employees. Which only brings the girl to tears! Tears are pouring down her face, and now she has to take more orders. Which only makes her cry more, cuz of embarrassment, and many other things. Later she rushes home to her mom. Where she cries on her mommy's shouldar, and recieves great love. Not sure if she can face the rest of the day, but knowing she must. She returns to work.

Now hours later, she is doing good. A little tired. Ready to go for a walk soon..They always seem to help. being close to nature. Who knows maybe she will find the bears cottage and eat all their porriage!

On a brighter note!!

Yesterday, I was able to dress up as The Hamburgalar!! Ya know the guy that is in the strips, wears like a zorro hat, and steals all the burgers!! He kind of looked like chucky to me!

My boss, Alice, told me to choose the big bag or little one..so I choose the big one..she unzips the bag..and out pops this purple thing..Yep it was Grimace! Well if any one really knows me..the whole costume things like that..well scare me.I ran out of the room, close to crying..than i tried to go back in later, i almost vomited, as i could still see it..it wasn't my finest moment..but yea know.. dressing up like that was fun!! the kids were so cool! they would hug me and kiss my mask..it was great..then i got to stand by the road, and wave at people.. some of them honked, some looked confused! but it sure made my night...when i took the mask off..it was gross, cuz i was so hot..yea, i just let you imagine..but it was worth it!!

Than my parents got Ducks, 4 of them..I think they are awesome!! I put in the bath tub the first day..with some water..they were so cute! I love them!! I have named 2 of them, than i change them..cuz i don't like them after i name them..(max, pedro, sinai,) so yea..it's fun!!

so I may be a little obsessed!! What's wrong with that? I don't think there is anthing wrong with it..yea..that's right..don't read my blog if you do!

Dang it..I had so much more to say on my title..but they cut me off!! what's up with that..only allowing you like five words..Okay geez, i know it's more than five..I can count!! right..I'm going to stop now..

today we celebrated the life! sort of..more of a belated/birthday thing for me and a friend, Lisa! Have you ever realized though that even your best planned plans..never really go as you want then too..yea that was today..bonfires, marshmellow, and hot dogs..that was all i wanted..mainly the fire, though..cuz they are mezmerizing..I like them..hee hee..I like them a lot..

but it was raining..Sad moments on one's life..So we took our little adventure to one others house..where we preceeded to roast marshmellows in their fireplace..which was rather cool.but you had to be really careful..they allowed me to watch a movie..since it was a celebration of myself..

Napoleon Dynamite!! will some one please tell me how to spell it..It was so hilarious..I was laughing a lot..and like there were people who hadn't seen it..and sometimes they would laugh..but for the most part..they just didn't understand..but I loved it..I took a quiz..and it was fun..I ended up being tator tot..If you want to be cool, like me..You can take it too..One day I hope to as cool..as Napoleon..

Can you name the seven dwarfs?

Went back to work today!!
It was crazy, due to the fact that I was completely tired..My brain was still at home, in bed..I was spacing..and on top of it we had this guy there that was suppose to be helpful..but he tells us everything that we are doing wrong!! So we were all stressed..I think I was just to out of it to care, but people were driving me crazy..but It's work!!

It's like 70 degrees here!! it is so beautiful..so after this I am going to go out and enjoy it..My dog is sitting at the door, staring in..I think he's waiting..

4 hours of sleep, and 12 hours of driving. Results in chaos!! So here is my chaos!!

You see it all began when I realized I had to go to the bathroom!! (Sarah I love you) Okay So on March 18, (my delightful birthday) I started to embarke on a journey of self discovery! Okay well, actually it was more of a trip to Toronto...but they go hand in hand!!
I stopped at crystals..it was so fun to see her!! She is so great..I had a lot of fun..we went to Fridays-and it was like their birthday-so my birthday is the same as tgifridays-how cool is that? So I got this cool hat..that I think i am going to wear like everyday!!

grr..I am so addicted to Gilmore Girls!! It's so hard to focus and watch this show..I have something great to say and then..termites happen on the show..and geez, I'm gone! How are they going to survive!! I must watch..It's so wrong..How can you be so into a t.v. show?? but then again, Lee is pretty addicted to Napoleon Dynamite!! Hey cool your jets..I wasn't dissing it..though I must admit the first time I watched it..I hated it..I fell asleep..I know it's a crime~while i'm at it, I haven't watched any of the stars wars movies either~which I will rent at the first chance and watch..only cuz I almost got attacked when I told Lee, sarah, and tim..Anyway, back to N. Dynamite..I watched it again, during my visit to Toronto..I will be forever in Lee's debt..cuz i would have been missing out..the second time around I laughed all the time..it was great..I learned a lot of the quotes..I have already worn out my welcome back at home!! hee hee!! It's fun!!

Well, now that I have already written a whole lot..I had so much fun this past week!! God like totally rocks my world..cuz i had money for like the whole thing and even some after..Which it was all a God thing!! I love this God..I think I totally fell in love with Him all over again!! He just showed himself in a new way! freshwind rocked!! But it always, well it was only my second one, but both of them have rocked!!

Sunday, like 2 days ago...after church*which sarah and I skipped out of!* she looked too cute sleeping there, she was so tired!! We, Lee, Tim,Sarah, Steven, Thomas, and like 2 other guys I don't even know if I got thier names, but we all went to kelseys..and it was fun..the whole reason I bring it up, is because Sarah and I ordered these like tiriasmoothies or something, me being the innocent girl that I am..don't think about what is in it..but when I recieve the drink, I taste it..It's reeaaly good..then I notice a slight taste..yes that is right!! there was alcohol in it! hee hee...yea, i didn't even realize..but it was really good!

The best part was seeing everyone again..people from the school, SARAH, Lee, the hollema boys, Tim, Beck, Crystal!! I love each of you so much!! I miss you guys so much when I am not around you!! I thought I had the whole thing solved by deciding that I just needed to marry a canaidian-then I realized Sarah and Lee are moving to Wales..HOw can you compete with that? Just have to marry an english guy, i guess!! yea that's right..who said anything about love!! I need to be by SArah!! geez..

Okay so now that I have written like half of my novel!! I will be signing off!!

A little request!!

Has some of you may know..I am planning a trip to Toronto..

I just need you all to pray..that if this is what My Daddy wants me to do that things will work out..

Cuz my car is on the fritz, and money is really tight..and I am not sure if I will be able to go..

I want to go..I miss you all so much...If i could have been..I'd be there now!! instead of writing this email!!

Pray that I will stop stressing over this, that I will give it to Jesus. Trust Him, even if it means not going..which I even hate writing that..but Just that He will provide..

I love you all!!
Dawna

Ha Ha!!

So I finally did it!!
I had been talking about dying my hair black, for some time..or just the tips..

Well, last night..my mom dyed my hair black..it's a really pretty black..and the more i see it the more i like it..but it's a huge change!

but it come out in like 28 shampoo's so it will be okay!!

ya know, it's always the little things!!

Okay, for the past hour, I have been checking email, and trying to figure out how to burn only a certain amount of songs on a cd..

don't laugh.. I am being serious! I almost gave up..but found a different program..

Then the cd popped out..and I'm like crap it didn't work..

but I am now listening to it..and it worked beautifully so far!!

do you know how happy that makes me!! I want to jump up and down..
well hang on..

Yahoo!!

The goodness of A Father!

God has totally rocked my socks off this week!!

A few weeks ago, we had this worship conference..it was really good..but after one of the sessions..My spiritual mom, pulls me over to the side and starts talking to me..before i knew it..now only was she reading my mail, but i was spilling out all these feeling that have had kept inside for so long.. tears were pouring out of everywhere. It wasn't my finest moments.

But ever since then..It's like I have opened up to this God I found in Toronto..for some reason I just left Him there. I got scared, not trusting really anyone..It wasn't fun..but It's starting to change!! I feel like I have told myself this so many times..but this time, it's like my heart knows it..it's not just something I am saying to convince myself..

I got to lead worship..which was awesome..I haven't felt God like that in a long time..It was so beautiful. The best part was I think i just let God take over..Let Him be in control..it totally rocked!!

The Holy Spirit is moving, not only through me but through people in my church!! There is this new freedom coming..It only happened after I stopped trying to control things..

Life is good.. I got a guitar!! I know the rest is coming..I just have to be patient..Let the big Man lead, and not me!!

Holy Piss!!!

holy piss..i can't believe it..

God is like so totally awesome!! I love him so much!!
it is about 10:30 at night..and for some random reason I came by the church on my way home..
in the sanctuary, there was this box that said: for dawna mullins...
I knew what it was...my heart jumped..
and yes it was a brand new guitar..with pick up..a built in tuner and it was so beautiful...

God is so cool..I was like "ohmygod" "ohmygod" Drew kept laughing at me..hee hee....

I love God!!

Anyway I just had to share that news with anyone who still reads this thing..

I don't believe it!

I led worship tonight!! along side chrissy, and hiedi..it's crazy..

It rocked though..not because i did, but just because God was there..

It was my first time, I guess after tonight we will see if they want me to do it again!!

catching up..

Okay so the weather here has sucked..
Snow, Rain, Ice, more snow, rain, ice..yea it hasn't been fun...but you learn to deal!
It's rained so much that the river close by has overflowed, actually anything holding water has overflowed..flooding everything near it..like 3 towns are not liveable..which really sucks..

Anyway, 4pfjajfeoiruoiwpjapuelkfpoauerpufl.p;awjdfoerjawpijwe;rmfujeioa'pfkjlk.....
sorry speaking in tounges, trying to write it doesn't work...hee hee..
Life has been pretty good...I no longer babysit which has made money tight, but I have also been able to spend a lot of time with God and just re-discover who He is, and who I am in Him..It's been really cool...I love this God so much!!

I sent my application in for SoW....I almost feel that it is almost a no go...that there is something else that God is going to have me doing, but I just sent it in anyway..

Last thursday, they left me in charge of the youth..which I am not sure was a good idea..but I love doing that stuff..just hanging out with them and talking..it was pretty good...
On sunday, I was partially in charge of the big service...it was really cool..I couldn't believe that they trusted me enough to do such a thing...cuz I act like a kid most of the time..but it was really cool!! Than I was asked last night if I wanted to lead worship on thursday sometime...it was really cool!!

My little sister is going to have boy!! She was going to name it Carter wayne..don't laugh, everyone I have told that has laughed...But then she has changed it to Brennon Ray..which i really like better..but is rather close to someone else you recently had a baby, and named it Brendon Ray...but it's all good!!

Kind of a sad theme today..

Hello folks!

Friday night we all went to my friend, Audreys house! It was really cool, cuz we worshipped for forever, then prayed and prophesied! IT was so much fun.

then i ended up going home at about 1 am, it had been sleeting/snowing for a few hours. When i hit the road that leads me almost to my house. I some how ended up doing a 180 and landed backwards in a ditch. Now no it's not as bad as sarah's or tim's. but it still kind of scared me. on the opposite side of the road, there were two telephone poles. It must have been God's hand cuz otherwise, i probably would have connected to those poles.
My friend Liz, drove by right after. She ended up going home and getting her brother, Josh, and our friend Jon. Some nieghbors came, and than my parents came. It was quite the event!!

I had to wake up this old couple. The man came out in a t-shirt and underwear..just what i wanted to see...but yea..

Then i have been sick all weekend. Not really fun.

We found out the other day, that my cousin's girlfriend lost her baby. So today was the visitation and funeral. I walked up to looked at this baby. It was so little. It looked fake. It was only 21 weeks old. A week older than my little sisters baby. It was just weird. Not real. He was cute. I felt bad, cuz the whole time i kept thinking, thank you God that it's not my sisters. and just praying that God would protect it. Is that wrong? i don't know. It was just sad.

I love you guys!

Sometimes I hear voices.

Okay so is anyone else big, fat and hairy from these past weeks...well maybe not hairy..
I don't think i have ever ate so much in my life..geez, now i have to go on a diet for like two days, cuz i won't be able to handle not eating what i want to eat, for more then that. so really I won't be going on a diet!! just eat more food, and hope for the best!!

Wow, what in the world has been going on with me? good question...

like 3 days before christmas, a bunch of us went sledding, now I don't know about you, but i don' like snow..maybe it is because i had a terrible accident while snow was on the ground, those darn expectanices, or what. but i don't venture out in the snow, nor play in it or anything like. I hope to one day overcome this fear and learn how to snowboard, ski, that sort of thing, but for now, I stay indoors. So we went. We walked forever, there was 7 of us and one little sleigh. So most of us spent our time by the fire. I did slid down once, let me tell you that was enough for me. If we didn't stop ourselves, the we ramped off the side of the hill, into the creek that was down below. The idea sounds fun, but really it just scared me. So long before i had too, i rolled off the sled!! then I was messing around on another hill, and dude, i couldn't not get up the hill for the life of me! I would take two steps, then fall back to where i was before.. My friend Drew tells me that i need to be a bear!! so I start growling, resulting in me laughing, as well as people at the top of the hill.. It was rather interesting.

Christmas was good..things with my family are kind of out of sorts, but what can you do?
I got to talk to my two bestest friends, Sarah and Chrystal!! who I adore!! It just really made me miss them even more!

I think thursday Tim called me!! Who I love so much! It was so cool to hear his voice and just talk to him! WE also had a slumber party as well, for all the girls in the youth, and some older..it was so much. We played twister, which is like my favorite game. Some of the boys tried to do something, but it didn't work. We are just to smart for them!

New Years was spent at the church. We had a service and rocked out till midnight. We ate, prayed, laughed. God hit good. Things are changing in me, in the church. God is moving in a different way. It feels so cool! Saturday, went to my sisters drank just a bit..The best part of the evening was when my sister put on her p.j.'s and i got to see her little belly..you can't really see it with normal clothes on, but you could with her p.j.'s..it was so great. I loved it!!

After the snow melted, rain set in. So we are living with mud and too much water. It's crazy cuz it's like 60 degrees. In january, that like hardly ever happens.

Anyway, I better get going.
Oh one more thing, sorry if this is confusing for anyone, *cough, cough* tim!!